“A lot of people put up a front so people won't know how vulnerable they really are. Me? I put up a front so people won't know how vulnerable I'm not… anymore.” - Dexter
Ever wonder why everyone treats you differently when you seem to be the same person to everyone? I used to think that I was the cause of me being misunderstood, mistreated and neglected. But I had to come to the reality that it wasn’t me, it was him, Reginald Hayes. Reginald Hayes took a lot in order to keep things on an even kill. Keeping things positive, you know always hoping for the best. Reginald Hayes never really complained, he just swallowed his pride and sometimes his dignity in order to make everyone else happy. Not for their benefit, but in order to NOT be the bad guy that ruined everything. Reginald Hayes had this complex to where he wanted to please everyone, every time, no matter the beef, situation, or confrontation. Date after date, spending money trying to impress the girl who always left. Or dating the hoe, trying to help her turn her life around and start a new. Wifin up the playhead that everyone in your crew had already ran through, trying to turn her into who she really wants to be deep down inside, yeah, that was Reginald Hayes. A little on the sensitive side, for things that didn’t require the sensitivity. More often then not Reginald ended up being the faithful boyfriend who always had money, the nice car, dressed nice, well mannered with a great sense of humor that the parents just love. “That guy’s got a bright future” they’d say, thinking that he was the one to sweep their daughter up into this fairytale themed life where she was the damsel in distress, and he was her knight in shining armor. All of these things were so true of the late Reginald Hayes, including his ability to love unconditionally. That love, so vibrant and tranquil, would not only be Mr. Reginald Hayes’ signature, it would also lead to his untimely departure.
Heartache is something no human should feel, ever. It hurts just like a gunshot to the lung without the blood and the bullet. It takes your breath away when you hear the words “I think we need a break”, or “I’m still in love with him”, or even “Ay man, I fucked her too!”. Any one of those would probably deter someone after the first couple of times, but not Reginald. He was a determined gentleman, eager to find his Mrs. Right in all the wrong places. Every last relationship that Mr. Hayes was involved in ended in dramatic fashion. First girlfriend dumped him to start dating a mutual friend of theirs, AFTER Mr. Hayes had given his friend his girlfriend’s number. And I know yal are thinking “well why did he give him the number in the first place?”. Well sometimes you have to be naïve in order to learn a couple of lessons. He never thought that this girl would leave him for the guy she left him for, but silly Mr. Hayes took a shot right to the heart in original over the phone, “It’s not you, it’s me” fashion. He was crushed of course to find out a couple of days later that the reason she left was because he had been replaced, by the friend.
The next shot came from an unlikely source, the high school sweetheart. Teenage love is always great; especially when you both are into it at the same time, on the same page. This girl was supposed to be the one, good family, good morals, church going and so fourth. And they were headed right to the alter, until life happened and she had to move away unexpectantly. But that wasn’t the dagger. They maintained their relationship until she returned to finish school. She however came back with a different mindset, and a different lust for life that led her into the arms of one of Mr. Hayes’ family members. He had no idea until one day he felt a burn, she played it coy, and then he, in return Let it Burn. She confessed after everything was pretty much already figured out, but another hole in Reginald’s heart had already been made.
Ah the next woman came in the form of the cutest most lovable person to be with; never a good person to be with if they just got out of a relationship themselves. School yard crush, turned into puppy love, into a very vibrant relationship, or so it seemed. He was so into her, and she seemed just as interested, until her ex wanted her back. This time he received the news over text message. It said something like “I’ve been talking to my ex… and”, that was all that needed to be said. A broken phone and another hole later, Reginald was right back to where he started, alone for seemingly no legitimate reason.
After her it took a while for Reginald to get back into the swing of things, but when he did he found comfort in an old friend from school. They clicked instantly and enjoyed the same things. Life was good together and both of them seemed to be so in love. And then tragedy struck in the form of another ex on a late night creep, wanting to “stop by for a quick second”. Well she let him, and he did, and then they did, and well things weren’t really the same after that. He was trying to learn to trust again, but that moment of passion that she had with her ex was a little too much for Mr. Hayes, who had already experienced the worst kinds of hurt, and this was just another one of those times.
After a short time letting the wounds heal, the good ole Mr. Reginald Hayes was quickly dwindling. Having sex with girls he barely knew, being very passive towards any type of real affection; and just basically suffering quietly until he met the one that was going to make everything better. She was different than any other girl he had dated, and she was exactly what he needed at the time. Something new, yet something familiar since he had known her from a previous work experience. They fell deep in love and shared all the things that lovers share. The best secrets, wonderful memories, and future goals were just a small taste of everything they offered each other. She was everything to him and he was finally loving all the way again. And then indecisiveness reared its ugly head and she wanted to go and “take some time apart”. That phone call was the last call Mr. Hayes ever took. He answered, but Mr. Hayze hung up.
After years and years of disappointment Mr. Reginald Hayes was assassinated on March 5, 2007, in a small one bedroom apartment in Cincinnati, Oh. All efforts to resuscitate him were unsuccessful. Cause of death, life. Reginald Hayes could no longer handle the life he was living. He had been tossed around, misused, and well abused to the point where he had no more fight left. His legacy lives on in every chivalrous act made by any man walking this earth. His accomplishments are that he loved without regret. Reginald Hayes was almost too good for this Earth, that’s why it is believed he left us so early, to fulfill his rightful place amongst the stars. Though his soul is in heaven, his body still walks this Earth in the form of Reggie Hayze.
The Assassination of Reginald Hayes is the musical offering of the listed events above through words, music, imagination and creativity. Here’s the final track listing:
1. Welcome to the Madness (The intro laced over Jazmine Sullivan’s “Lions and Tigers and Bears” a necessary sample for such an intro)
2. I Think I Love Her prod. by BassBoy (Starting from the beginning of the relationship when you not sure how you feel about the one you’re with)
3. Cater to You Memix (A male version take on the Destiny’s Child ballad. Still in the beginning stages of new love)
4. Weak Memix (A male version of the SWV hit, expressing how love gets you when you finally realize what happened)
5. Shorty Wanna Cum Interlude (Getting into the intimate part of the relationship… Hell it speaks for itself)
6. Talk to Me prod. By Tone (Once again… it speaks for itself)
7. Say You Will Mestyle (A classic take on a love going south after argument after argument, laced over Kanye West’s “Say You Will” beat from 808’s and Heartbreaks)
8. Premeditated Murder (Cry Me) prod. by STEREOTYPE & Smoove (This samples Justin Timberlake’s “Cry Me A River” with a riveting telephone message left by a boyfriend who caught his girl cheating. Everyone thinks like this, I just so happened to put it on wax)
9. Homicide (New lyrics over the original “Cry Me a River” beat… a very creative continuance to track #8)
10. Happy Ending (Welp… just listen close)
11. Police Skit
12. One in a Million Memix (The late Aaliyah’s song was twisted in this tale of a love gone terribly wrong)
13. Vicky’s Secret prod. by Smoove ( A jetty ode to the best panties ever over a classic Smoove production)
14. Promise Memix (A jetty balad about following through on what you say you gon do to her)
15. Diamonds & Brain Mestyle (A straight freestyle over Fab’s “Diamonds” song from a couple of summers ago.)
16. On Fire Mestyle (A freestyle over the Lloyd Banks beat from a few years back)
17. Turnin Me Off feat. Young Nitty & Princinnati ( You know the song… now ear it from a male’s point of view.)
18. Right There prod. by BassBoy (An uptempo joint about where I want her to put her body)
19. Good (snippet) prod. by STEREOTYPE (A preview of a song off of the upcoming STEREOtype album.)
20. Assassinate Me prod. by STEREOTYPE (the wrap up of the story line over a sampled line from Lil Wayne’s “Playing With Fire” off The Carter III)
21. Outro (Who Shot Ya) prod. by STEREOTYPE (A sample of Biggie’s “Who Shot Ya” while freestyling over the beatbox driven beat.)
Sometimes you have to kill the old you, in order to get to a better you...